seriously, people are strange

that includes me.

at the end of a 10 hour workday that was december 26th..iam left with little to say.

iam seriously beginning to wonder....how much of inward thought is enough to make you say....okay...enough...now shut up..

it is so amazing that we being the forever bent worshippers of our own egos have such low thresholds to trip across into insanity..

and all these emotions we get caught up in...as principal culprits or not..seem to be the only things driving us...never letting us go...even when we realize and really really believe that there is more to life than this everyday pettiness...

its amazing that the brain programs us to forget reality and eventuality and coast along, forever distracted.....as long as we function on some level that doesnt hold back civilization..

i will argue with anyone about this point....we are forever living lives that are ghosts of our growing pains...and our parents did the same and theirs did the same..

is this rational? is it not better on paper to declare independence from all the cliched miseries that we so greedily eat up?

happiness is surely that distraction that keeps us afloat so that we might find an answer someday..

thank heavens for that..

p.s: memory loss is under-rated.